It’s been some time since my last post, mainly because I’ve been allowing things to develop with the lawyer, and to see where things led us with respect to D/s and cuckolding. The dynamic that has developed with him is multi faceted and complicated, but primarily revolves around being a brat, goading him into asserting himself and being frightened into temporary obedience. There are other aspects to our dynamic and play that we are exploring, that further complicate things. Whilst bottoming isn’t new to me, it is something that I haven’t engaged in for many years, and certainly not whilst C and I have been together. As such, C isn’t entirely at ease with it, finding marks on me somewhat unpalatable, and not wanting to witness any type of play between myself and the lawyer. For the time being, cuckolding is entirely off the table for the three of us, although in time perhaps that will change. Whilst I’m somewhat sad about that, as it’s one of both C‘s and the lawyer‘s biggest kinks, I also feel quite private about this side of my sexuality, and at the moment am happy for the top and bottom sides of me not to mix.
That’s not to say that cuckolding play is out of the question entirely. Part of my reason for writing this blog is that I wanted to write it from the perspective of the cuckoldress, a normal woman, dispelling a lot of the fantasies and myth-fuelled hotwifing and cuckolding blogs around. I’m not seeking fuck buddies, casual encounters with married men, BBC or any of the other cliched things that I’ve read on other blogs. I’m not a hotwife, I’m not a submissive married woman fucking a bunch of guys to please my husband and I’m not over forty. I’m a mostly dominant switch, a bratty bottom, a polyamorous woman trying to find a way to play with the emotions of cuckolding without breaching my polyamorous principles.
As long as the lawyer and I have been dating, I’ve been playing and in relationships with other people, and that’s never awakened the cuckolding thing in him before. I’ve had a husband, a girlfriend, tied hot ladies and done casual play at events, but it seems a bio-penis possessing dominant is the one thing that truly awakens the feelings of possession and jealousy in other men. When I told the lawyer that I’d arranged a date with a male, dominant, polyamorous friend that I’d had a crush on for some time, to my delight the floodgates were opened. We both felt the cuckolding dynamic awakening, and excitedly exchanged hot messages about it. I described getting ready at his house for my date, selecting an outfit I know would drive him wild with desire, only to walk out of the door and meet another man. I talked of applying my lipstick and not allowing him to ruin it with kisses. I described coming home with another man’s scent on me, another dominant’s marks imprinted on my flesh, another man’s kisses on my lips.
This apparently drove the lawyer wild, given his penchant for teasing and despite his toppiness towards me. I found I love the idea of taunting him from a brat perspective, which led me to thinking, why would a cuckoldress or hotwife need to be submissive? Or even a top, with a hareem of lovers? Why can’t the cuckoldress be a switch, or a brat? Why can’t I cuckold my dominant with another dominant? I realised I found that insanely hot, such an inversion of the usual power balance, such a bratty thing to do, and how much I’d love the reclaiming and reassertion after the date.
So there’s potential there; as I continue to date, and to explore bottoming with other partners. I’m excited to see where this goes, and how this dynamic develops.